目送

想看已久的龍應台，趁這寒假啃一本。
可能因為天氣特別涼，那種冷清，那種寂寞，彷彿要滲入皮膚裡。

It is November

It's a cold November as the sea crashes in
But I still do remember though the memory grows dim
To a magical summer with sweet Mary Mckear
In the west, in Tir n'a Noir

Were you there as a dream though it all seems so real
With the laughter I hear and the touch I can feel?
Far beyond the horizon where the fog disappears
You were mine, dear Mary Mckear

Though my body's broken and my spirit is weak
My soul is awoken as I hear someone speak
Please come back my lover, now your future lies here
Please come back to Tir n'a Noir

You were good, you were kind
You'll have all that you earned
For the secrets you kept and the lessons you learned
So I'll take you with me as your pain disappears
I'll be yours, your Mary Mckear

For all who have lived through a life of regret
Who have need to remember but try to forget
There’s a place in the distance who’s future is clear
In the west, in Tir n'a Noir

Were you there as a dream though it all seems so clear
With the laughter I hear and the touch I can feel?
I can cure all your sorrows and heal all your fears
I’ll be yours, your Mary McKear

阿門

終於，你倒下來。2010年2月26日創刊，花了我們多少心血，造了多少個噩夢，那段想起也讓人顫抖的日子。同年同月同日，四份負責的刊物同時改頭換面。那段日子，很壞。能帶領我的都離開了。靠著自己摸索和兄弟頂硬上，總算挺過去了。當你挺過去了，就是挺過去了。好像再沒有甚麼事情讓人徬徨，好像，再沒有甚麼事情，值得徬徨。十年後，除了我，應該都沒有人再會記得這份東西。甚至，連我都記不起。

_還是
_如此
_而矣

很老土，但真想唱句：變幻原是永恆

貴婦茶

今天感覺成了真正的女人，因為high tea 去了 xD

生活，工作，freelance，要聊的能聊的都太多。以前在soc房打牌、攀山去香港電台吃午餐的日子，沒有想過我們會對著海景像貴婦般喝Darjeeling吧。其實地方都不重要。真的不重要。雖然大家的生活都有點不一樣，但都與彼此同在。從前如此。以後。也如此。阿里，我在大發街支持你啊~ 行動組!加!油!

那年

沒有那些的那年，都在女校長大，即使進了大學班上也只有零星幾個男生。沒有暗戀明戀過誰，中五時有同學為我牽紅線，把友校的男生介紹給我，第一次見面後彷彿覺得自己做了一件有生以來最錯的事，愧對列祖列宗，因自小的教育都讓我覺得中學生談戀愛不對。可能因此看那些青春愛情片都沒有太大的感覺。是我錯過了甚麼嗎? 看<<那些年>>是因為平行時空，但原來就那麼一句，沒有太深刻。那種青春，很嗆。關於青春，關於愛情，還是<<藍色大門>>比較悅目。不一定要烈日當空，不一定要每天打手鎗說髒話才叫青春。那種羞澀和懵懂，是一抺淡雲，是一首詩。

又，休隊兩個月後的打球天，身體和靈魂又從沉睡中醒來嚕 : )

: )

When I was 5 years old, my mother told me happiness was the key to life.
When I went to school they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down "happy ".
They told me i didn' t understand the assignment.
I told them they didn' t understand life.

- John Lennon

堅持

想不到這許多年以後，燃點我的，還會是你，還有你說的故事。是的，有一些事情，縱然可怕，但你知道，如果那一刻不站起來的話，你會後悔一輩子，所以還是站出來了。我們不是勇者無懼，只是，只是，用微薄的力量，去守護我們那一丁點的信仰。